I’m not that strong.

There’s a saying that “God doesn’t give you more than you can handle”. Well, being that I’m a spiritual person, I believe in the power of Love and that truth is found in all religions. At this moment in time I think that statement might be incorrect because I don’t think I can handle this.

I just found out one of my best friends (who I just reconnected with after years) has COVID, I have some personal family issues that are emotionally very hard to deal with along with trying to heal from everything and maintain my full time job that I recently got promoted in.

I don’t think I can handle this. Being in the situation I was in I was cut off from all friends and family so I don’t feel I have anyone to talk to. I know my family will listen, but I also don’t want to burden them. I just feel exhausted. I’m emotionally exhausted. I’m tired. I think maybe this time God/universe/source/ whatever you want to call it.. might have given me more than I can handle. Please note I’m not considering harming myself I’m just expressing how I feel and that is very tired. I’m tired of fighting. I just want to heal, I want everything and everyone to be okay. Healing is hard, but I’ll make it through, and hopefully one day, someday, help someone else too.

Thank you for reading.