Haircuts

So, I went to get a haircut for my youngest and I today. Something that should be so simple gave me a lot of anxiety. They asked me how I wanted my hair cut. I never know the answer. I didn't get my hair done for ten years….so we didn't have to go to the…

Update

Today I did something really hard. I went to my Dr's appointment. It gave me flashbacks to when I was trafficked… but I got through it. Today I put in my notice at a job that is draining for a job that will give me more time with my family and is truly helping others.…

Healing??

So, I'm told I need to heal before I can help others, which I understand, but I don't know what that looks like. How do I know I'm healed. How do I even begin to heal? I feel like I'm avoiding everything and burying it because I'm good at that. However, I also feel like…

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I’m not that strong.

There's a saying that "God doesn't give you more than you can handle". Well, being that I'm a spiritual person, I believe in the power of Love and that truth is found in all religions. At this moment in time I think that statement might be incorrect because I don't think I can handle this.…

One Month Old!

Today, on Thanksgiving my Blog is one month old! I just want to say Thank you to my followers and I hope you have a wonderful Thanksgiving. I know this time of year can be hard, especially with COVID this year, but remember all the things you have to be grateful for, even if its…

Self care

I really needed to get out of my head today. I've been dealing with a lot. So, I went for a drive and stopped by this beautiful body of water to just breathe in the smell and relax. I'm feeling wonderful right now. I can't express the nourishment a cool breeze and the smell of…

Emotions…??

Hello, This week I get to focus on working on emotions. Where does it hurt? Where do you feel what you are feeling? What do you feel? It's hurts everywhere... it hurts my heart. Yet I feel numb. I want to cry but I can't seem to. I feel used and broken. I told my…

Poem 3.

So, having a bit of a bad day... but I wrote a poem from it. What do you think?? To be sold is a pain I could never explain.Its a pain that has no words.These words could never touch the feeling of utter worthlessness that comes with being shown you can be sold for a…

Thoughts after Therapy

I just had a therapy appointment. It was good. She recommended I call (not on the phone but as in conversation when referring to him) him my abuser or trafficker rather than my ex because this will help me see the bad he did rather than the good and help me in my healing. I'm…